Plan B

I drive all day long, so I listen to the radio a lot. Periodically, I will listen to a CD, but my taste in music isn't work friendly.  I have gotten to where I generally cannot stand the music on the radio and the commercials aggravate me to no end. Because of this and the facial tic I am blessed with as a result of stress and  overstimulation, I tend to listen to talk radio. The commercials are every bit as bad, maybe worse, but at least my brain is active instead of just being a open receiver for their accursed marketing techniques. At the point in the day when I am driving the furthest, I catch a "money talk" type show. I used to absolutely despise it, but for some reason (probably  the desire to feel like a responsible adult), I listen and sometimes even take note. The show is obviously not meant for 40 year old couriers with no higher education making about $6 less than a living wage with no chance of getting a raise and very low probability of getting a promotion.  This program is for educated go-getters that make tons of money for doing less work than me..oh yeah they have more education and more "responsibilities" than me...  Anyway, a subject that comes up as of late is moderately successful people's plan "B". These people often fret over their plan "B" since they make $100,000 a year but they are still living paycheck to paycheck in their nice big homes, secure in their gated communities safe from the undesirables. Well, their big  house with lots of bedrooms and a garage that probably doesn't house their Nice Mercedes and/or Hummer since they park it where everyone can see it means they are in debt and are "house poor" just like my broke ass.  Anyway, screw a plan "B". I am one of those people that needs to have a plan "A".
This "blog", or whatever you want to call it, acts as a sort of toilet paper for my mind and is representative of my life in a way; wandering aimlessly. Lost. I am at a point where I cannot take time off work, go to school to be an EMT(now a requirement for the fire department) and retake the agility test and study for the written test again (they are looking for higher scores than I made). I am 39 years old and the cutoff is 40. The dream is dead. That officer was right. I DID, in fact, miss my calling. That's alright I guess. I thought EMT might be a good alternative, but that isn't a lifestyle I want for myself or my wife.

As far as lifestyle goes, to end on a high note, yoga is definitely another calling. I have a good support system and have lost a lot of fat and gained some muscle. I intend to stick with this.  I will resume uploading sexy pics for you to see as my body undergoes changes for the better. Thanks for reading. Thanks a lot!

this is going to hurt you a lot more than it is going to hurt me

i am slightly ashamed, but feel a little justified because of my ridiculously low wage.  mguider [no msg] just got monetized.  i will leave this post here even if i remove the ads, so if you are reading this out there and there are ads, thank you for stopping by and maybe helping me get paid, i hope you got a little something from a post i did even if it was to help you see that you can blog/write better.  i don't have anything much to even write about i just do it to keep from eating, smoking and hating myself in other, less fun ways.  IF there are ads, i hope they are not too offensive to you.  They will probably be for things you have recently done web searches on.  No matter the situation though, thanks for reading!

Merge denial

Merging onto a highway can be a little nerve wracking to inexperienced drivers, especially in heavy traffic.  Merging vehicles must accelerate to highway speed (not slow down or stop) in order to merge safely and sometimes, the on-ramp for the merging vehicles is way too short to allow for highway speeds to be achieved. Drivers on the highway approaching the merge must remain alert, proactive and courteous.

When approaching a merge, you should keep an eye on the traffic around you and notice if there are any gaps for the merging vehicle to merge into.  If there are no gaps in the traffic for the merging vehicle, you should create one if at all possible, in order to allow them to merge onto the highway safely.  To create a break in traffic for the merging vehicle you move over into the left lane so the merging vehicles can safely enter the highway.  If this isn't possible, adjust your speed to create a break in front of or behind you signaling the other driver if possible.  The worst thing you can do is a merge denial.

A merge denial is when you, for what ever reason, stay in the right lane and speed up (or continue speeding) when approaching a traffic merge in order to insure that the merging vehicle does not get in front of you.  This situation cannot be avoided sometimes, such as when the merging vehicle hesitates and/or you are being tailgated by a horde of traffic pushing you beyond the speed limit and you cannot move over due to high traffic in both lanes, but from personal experience, a lot of the time, a merge denial isn't implemented because of no options, but rather out of distracted driving habits or a form of road rage.  This will inevitably cause the merging vehicle to be forced to stop on the on-ramp, often suddenly, to avoid hitting the guardrail or running off the road.

Be kind when you see others merging. Ease off the gas a bit if someone's trying to merge onto the highway in front of you, or speed up if that's the safer option. Stay alert and try to make things easier for the other drivers - it makes the highway safer for everyone.

What am i doing?

Even though I haven't been as diligent as I would have liked to have been, I can tell a huge difference in my endurance and my balance. I feel better for longer periods than I used to. My weight is fluctuating but I tell myself it is muscle. This is working but I will have to work harder than I am currently. Another position opened for fire cadets. The physical exam is next Thursday. I don't think I am ready for it. I am trying to not get bummed out. I SHOULD try out at the training center; the training chief said I could. I just don't want to be THAT guy. The one that everyone secretly is irritated by and who tries so hard and everyone knows will fail and then he fails. I think that is some stupid dark fantasy in my mind, though. Just get there and do your best, Scott. Just do your best.

Form meets function

Well I'm trying out the talk to text feature on my phone doing some multi tasking I think this is going pretty good so far. Just to let all my faithful readers out there no I and still here alive and kicking just working awfully hard life has presented us some unique challenges but I am too stubborn to ever give up so there's that. I am still going for fire fighting as a career . My job is helping me lose weight because I am active a lot of the time. I am practicing DDP yoga and I am ready to start the program. It is not easy but it is not as hard as it looks. I am able to do things now that I have never tried . This was just a quick update I'll get back to you all later.