Even though I haven't been as diligent as I would have liked to have been, I can tell a huge difference in my endurance and my balance. I feel better for longer periods than I used to. My weight is fluctuating but I tell myself it is muscle. This is working but I will have to work harder than I am currently. Another position opened for fire cadets. The physical exam is next Thursday. I don't think I am ready for it. I am trying to not get bummed out. I SHOULD try out at the training center; the training chief said I could. I just don't want to be THAT guy. The one that everyone secretly is irritated by and who tries so hard and everyone knows will fail and then he fails. I think that is some stupid dark fantasy in my mind, though. Just get there and do your best, Scott. Just do your best.
