A very funny thing has happened during my lifetime. I, for one, having always been a little slow for lack of a better word, pretty much grew up in a vacuum-not many friends (none outside of school), I was basically Napoleon Dynamite.
Napoleon daydreams his way through school, doodling ligers and fantasy creatures, and reluctantly deals with the various bullies who torment him, particularly the obnoxious sports jock Don and the selfish, out-of-shape Randy. Napoleon likes to make up stories about himself whilst assuming a sullen and aloof attitude.
Everything that I learned (outside of school) was from old books and encyclopedias. Old, outdated information written for people from a different age, a different generation. I read these books over and over. I read about metaphysics, ufos, the occult, the bible, airplanes, satellites, rockets, guns, the solar system and all that and that was my connection with reality. Otherwise, I didn't have any connection to the rest of the world until later on. During those years, I did a lot of thinking about reality. The internet really did provide quick and easy access to the rest of the world, and I am not talking about email. I am talking about search engines. I could read about everything that interested me. I always wanted to talk about stuff to other people that were of similar interest. I wanted to talk about it so as to share ideas, learn from each other and challenge my beliefs. I don't think that this is an unhealthy thing to do, but it sure is hard to find people that also wish to do that. There are plenty of people that just want to preach. Pretty soon I got to researching metaphysics, ufos, the occult and everything else I was interested and I absorbed a lot of information. I copied the text and printed it so tiny it was barely legible and absorbed the information as if it were the truth. I was pretty naive, early on, because I looked at the internet as a sort of encyclopedia. If it's on the internet, it must be true, documented facts, right?
I fell victim to many conspiracy theories. Actually, they are all connected. If you study ufos long enough you will also find that they are connected with chemtrails and the secret government, which is connected with the illuminati and, of course, the illuminati are responsible for everything bad. Well, it gets even crazier when you find out that the moon is fake and was put there by reptilian aliens. It gets crazier still, and I don't even want to revisit some of the crazy things that I used to read about. I guess I eventually came to the conclusion that it is all crap. If you can't accept one thing without accepting all of it, throw it all out. I am not saying that these things are not real, but the perception of these things is very interesting to me. I believe that the perception of the illuminati as an all powerful force behind the scenes is actually a projection of our pyramid based class system and the real conspiracy is the one we are all in against ourselves.
I began seeing that the conspiracy theories were all coalescing into a sort of religion and I didn't like it. I didn't trust it. I began questioning all the big conspiracy acts like Alex Jones, Jesse Ventura and David Icke. I changed from an attitude of "it is so crazy it has to be real", to an attitude of "this is ridiculous". I still see contrails, but I certainly don't subscribe to any conspiracy theories about them.
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