Well, now...it's been a long time!

Yeah, it has been. Still fat. Check out my fat blog. Nothing out_o'my/feeNGRS for a while...
Still GD M-erF'in confused. Awaiting for some kind of sign from god to continue or stop what I am doing. You know...lead me in the right direction. I don't know why...I believe that God does not care about such things. Why would an omnipotent creator be the least bit concerned with my puny pathetic little life? Who knows? (Rhetorical question) God is this nothing/everything. We are merely small fractions of total awareness limited by our body. Is it this simple? Is Jesus the one and only path? Is it Mohamed? Who knows? Maybe it is neither one or either one. I don't think that it matters. Why am I so confused and yet so sure? Who knows? I am definitely a spiritual freak. I have become aware that I am lazy. Extremely paranoid too. This is due to my frustration with god. Life has sucked sometimes. The crappy things that happen, when it rains it pours. Why doesn't it stop raining? Flooding? I hate the rain.