the test isn't over

i know what i have to do. i have needed to for a long time. i have got to get in shape. that is part of the reason for applying for the position of firefighter. i know that it is hard work. i am not afraid of hard work. i just like to be fat. you know, it is easy to be fat. you just sit. and eat. and think. that is my life. sitting, eating and thinking. sitting makes me fat. eating makes me fat. thinking makes me depressed and so i want to sit and eat more. tired of that. i need discipline. desperately.

the following is a description of the physical abilit test for applicants, which simulates the job of a firefighter. Applicants are required to pass all components of the test within the alloted time. To pass the test, applicants that perform all ten tasks consecutively, without interruption, in proper sequence, within seven minutes. Throughout the test, applicants are required to wear an air tank.

TASK 1: HOSE DRAG (50 foot length, 3 inch hose, 57 pounds)
TASK 2: HOSE CARRY UP STAIRS (2-1/2 inch folded hose, 36 pounds)
TASK 3: HOSE PULL (50 foot length, 2-1/2 inch hose, 36 pounds)
TASK 4: SCALING 4-1/2 FOOT WALL
TASK 5: LADDER RAISE (20 feet, 60 pounds)
TASK 6: LADDER CLIMB AND DESCEND (about 10 feet)
TASK 7: CLIMBING STAIRS WITH DUMBELL WEIGHT (15 pounds)
TASK 8: FORCIBLE ENTRY SIMULATION - HIT TIRE WITH MAUL (8 pound maul, 77 oound weighted tire, 12-1/2 foot laung metal-surface table)
TASK 9: TUNNEL CRAWL (25 feet long, 2-1/2 feet high, 3 feet wide)
TASK 10: DUMMY DRAG (5 foot, 5 inch, 145 pound dummy, 45 foot drag)

Plus I will need to do sit-ups, push-ups and run 1/4 mile all timed.

i need to fully commit my life to this. i have said before that putting all of one's eggs in one basket is sometimes the only option, particularly if one only has one egg and one basket. i have since dropped all the rotten eggs and it is way too late for the multiple basket thing. if there is a chance, i can do it. if i don't it is because i don't want to. or they don't want me because i am too old and fat. this isn't a fatalistic outlook and i know that there is still a future for me if they don't want me, but the point is that this is what i want and i am going to do everything in my power to get it and i am not going to give up. i am not going to say or think "this is too hard for me" or "this is impossible". it isn't and i am out to prove that anything is possible and anyone can change their life with self discipline and focus. well, anyway...gotta exercise and get my haircut today. cya!